Man, sometimes life just hits you, right? Like a big, murky wave. I remember hearing whispers about this “Saturn in Pisces” thing starting around 2023 and lasting till 2026, and honestly, I just kinda shrugged it off. Astrology, for me, was always more of a fun little curiosity, not something I really lived by. But then, things started getting weird. And by weird, I mean like trying to walk through thick fog every damn day. That’s when I thought, okay, maybe there’s something to this. Maybe I needed my own kind of “ephemeris guide” for navigating whatever this transit was actually bringing.
The Swirling Mess Before Everything Hit
Honestly, before 2023, my life felt like a beautiful, chaotic mess, but mostly leaning towards chaotic. I was juggling too many ideas, chasing too many dreams, and none of them really seemed to stick or form into anything solid. My boundaries? Ha! They were practically non-existent. Friends, work, my own downtime – it all just bled into one big, indistinct blob. I’d commit to something one day, feel totally inspired, and the next, I’d be drifting onto another passion project, leaving the last one half-finished. Money wasn’t exactly tight, but it wasn’t flowing either; it was just… there, fluctuating, much like my own sense of purpose. I was sensitive, yeah, too sensitive maybe, soaking up everyone else’s emotions like a sponge, and then wondering why I felt so drained and overwhelmed all the time. I kept telling myself, “It’s just my artistic nature!” but deep down, I knew it was more like I was lost at sea without a compass, just kinda floating wherever the current took me.
When Saturn Dropped the Hammer
Then, bam. 2023 rolled around, and it felt like someone just yanked the rug out from under all that comfy, hazy drifting. It wasn’t one big, dramatic event, but a series of small, relentless pressures. Suddenly, all those half-finished projects? They started demanding attention. My loose boundaries? They became liabilities. I remember this one specific client project just completely falling apart because I hadn’t set clear expectations from the start, and it cost me a good chunk of change. That stung. Then, a few friendships that had been more about mutual codependency than real connection started feeling incredibly heavy, like anchors dragging me down. I tried to just ignore it, to float away like I always did, but the feeling of being trapped, of needing to deal with things, got stronger and stronger. It was like life was forcing me to confront all the places where I’d been too vague, too idealistic, or too afraid to draw a line in the sand. I felt this huge wave of melancholy and disappointment, not just with others, but with myself for letting things get so messy. The dreams I’d been chasing? Some of them just started to feel like fantasies, not actual paths.
My Scrambled Attempts at an “Ephemeris Guide”
That’s when I finally decided, enough was enough. I had to create my own damn guide to get through this. No fancy astrological charts, just my own gritty, day-by-day practice. I started with the most basic thing: I made a budget. Like, a real, spreadsheet-driven, ‘where every penny goes’ budget. For someone who usually just vibes with their bank balance, this was revolutionary. I tracked every single date I spent or earned, marking them down. It was painful, but it forced me to see where the leaks were.
- March 2023: First full month of strict budgeting. Felt like pulling teeth.
- June 2023: I started saying “no.” First to extra social commitments, then to small favors at work that weren’t in my job description. It was awkward as hell, but I started to reclaim my time. I literally wrote down “No” in my journal next to the date for every instance.
- August 2023: I picked one, just one, of those half-finished projects. A short story I’d started years ago. And I forced myself to work on it for just 30 minutes every single morning, no matter what. No excuses. I marked the completion date on my calendar like it was a major holiday.
- November 2023: I finally confronted a friend about their constant negativity. It was a really tough conversation, messy and emotional, but it felt like clearing out stagnant water. I noted the date in my “guide” as a “boundary-setting milestone.”
It wasn’t pretty. There were days I fell off the wagon, days I just wanted to curl up and avoid everything. But then the feeling of pressure, of things needing to be fixed, would return, and I’d pick myself up again. I tried meditating more regularly, not for some spiritual awakening, but just to quiet the noise in my head so I could actually think clearly about what needed to be done. I even started setting an alarm for bedtime, which sounds insane, but my sleep had been all over the place. These weren’t magic fixes, just consistent, often uncomfortable, daily actions.
Pushing Through the Fog
As 2024 rolled along, the resistance started to lessen a bit. Things weren’t suddenly perfect, but the effort I’d been putting in began to show results. My finances became more stable. The one project I committed to actually got finished, and that gave me a huge boost of confidence. The friendships that survived my boundary-setting felt stronger, more real. I wasn’t just drifting; I felt like I was actually steering my own ship, slowly, deliberately, through the choppy waters. There were still moments of profound sadness or feeling overwhelmed, especially when I’d catch myself slipping back into old patterns. But now, instead of wallowing, I’d recognize it faster, and pull myself back. It was like the cosmic fog was still there, but I had learned how to use my own internal compass, developed through all that tough practice, to find my way.
What I really got out of it:
This whole Saturn in Pisces thing, or whatever you want to call it, it forced me to get real. It made me build structure where there was only fluidity, brought discipline to my dreams, and cut through the illusions I’d been living under. It was hard, painful work, but damn, did it pay off. I’m still figuring things out, always will be, but I’m no longer just floating. I’m grounded, I’m clearer, and I’ve got a much stronger sense of myself, even in the midst of the chaos.
