Man, when Saturn first cruised into Pisces back in March of 2023, I gotta say, I felt it. It wasn’t like a sudden punch or anything, more like the ground under my feet just turned a bit… squishy. Everything I thought I had a handle on, all the neat little boxes I’d built for my life, they just started to feel a bit wobbly, like the edges were dissolving. It was confusing as hell, honestly. I remember just staring at my calendar, trying to figure out why I felt so out of sorts, like I was living in a fog sometimes.
The Big Blur Hits Home
I usually pride myself on being pretty organized, you know? Got my routines, my plans. But around that time, everything just seemed to get vague. Decisions that used to be clear suddenly had a dozen shades of grey. I started feeling this pull to just escape, to ditch all the “shoulds” and just float. It was both appealing and utterly terrifying because I also felt like I was losing my grip on reality. I’d try to nail down a project, and it would just morph, like trying to catch smoke. I realized I was facing a lot of stuff I’d buried deep, things I hadn’t really wanted to deal with. Old anxieties, self-doubt, all that vague unease I usually push down, it just bubbled up to the surface. It was like the universe was telling me, “Hey, you gotta clean out those hidden corners, buddy, no more sweeping stuff under the rug.”
When Things Went Backwards – Summer 2023
Then, by summer, when Saturn went retrograde, that’s when things really got introspective for me. It wasn’t a time for pushing forward, that’s for sure. It felt like a deep dive, whether I wanted it or not. I found myself
- Re-evaluating almost every major commitment I’d made that year, asking if it truly aligned with my core values or if it was just me chasing some old dream that wasn’t mine anymore.
- Feeling this intense need to retreat. I spent a lot more time alone, just thinking, sometimes just staring blankly at the wall, trying to process the emotional soup I was swimming in.
- Old illusions really got a spotlight. I had to face some hard truths about relationships, about my own habits, and about what I thought “success” even meant. It was uncomfortable, like pulling off a bandage from an old wound.
I tried to journal more consistently during that period, just to get some of the jumbled thoughts out of my head. It helped, a little. It was rough going, trying to find clarity when everything felt so murky.
Building Something from the Mist (Late 2023 – Early 2024)
As the year turned and Saturn started moving direct again, I felt a slight shift. Not a full “aha!” moment, but more like the mist thinning just enough to see a path, even if it was still a bit foggy. This is where I started to really put the Saturn lesson into practice: bringing form to the formless. I’d always had this big, vague dream about a creative project, something that felt too big, too out of reach, too “Pisces” to ever actually commit to. But during this period, I found myself compelled to start sketching out an actual plan. Not just dreaming about it, but setting up a schedule, figuring out the practical steps, the mundane details I usually hate. It was like I was taking that big, amorphous cloud of an idea and trying to give it some solid structure, brick by brick. It wasn’t easy. There were days I just wanted to throw my hands up and say, “Forget it, this is too much work, it’s never going to happen.” But something kept pushing me.
The Next Round of Reality Checks (Mid-2024 Onwards)
Then, wouldn’t you know it, another retrograde cycle came around in mid-2024. This time, it felt different. Less about the initial shock and more about refining what I’d started to build. I had to revisit those initial plans for my project, and some of them needed serious adjustments. I also faced another wave of those old fears – fear of failure, fear of judgment, fear that my creative efforts weren’t “good enough.” It made me realize that bringing discipline to a dream isn’t a one-and-done thing; it’s an ongoing process of confronting those inner demons and pushing through. I also had to draw clearer boundaries with people, which is something I’ve always struggled with. Saying “no” without feeling guilty, defining my space, my time. It was tough, but necessary, like Saturn was making me strengthen my internal infrastructure.
Looking Towards the Finish Line (2025-2026)
Now, as we push into 2025 and look towards early 2026, I’m still in the thick of it. My creative project is coming along, slowly but surely. It’s a testament to the fact that you can actually build something tangible out of pure imagination, as long as you put in the disciplined effort. I’m still learning to navigate those emotional currents, to trust my intuition while also staying grounded in reality. I expect these last bits of Saturn in Pisces to really solidify those lessons. It’s about building a foundation that can hold my dreams without them just evaporating, or becoming a source of aimless escapism. I’m hoping by the time Saturn finally leaves Pisces, I’ll have a much clearer sense of purpose, stronger boundaries, and a tangible outcome from all this soulful hard work. It’s been a marathon, not a sprint, and definitely a period that has forced me to grow in ways I never anticipated.
